That Hospital Feeling…

** This was written Thursday evening.  Unsure of what Friday would bring

Hi Friends, I'm glad to be here.  Logging in is like a breath of fresh air, getting these thoughts out.

Hospitals are necessary (and good).  But regardless of why you are there, there is always a nervous air about.  Whether it's passing a man who wears a nervous smile in the cafeteria (he's getting coffee and about to become a dad), or loved ones huddled together, faces damp.  Or maybe you're going for news… good news, bad news.  I can't help but feel uneasy every time I walk into a hospital.

I was in one today.  I tried to notice people and their demeanor, something to take my mind off of everything else.  And I attempted a half smile at people I made eye contact with.  There was a trend, exhaustion and nervousness.  You can know someone all your life, go to see them in a hospital and have no idea what to say.  I have this problem.  Don't get too close (for fear of bumping something or breaking something), don't pry (even though I would love to know what the heck is really going on), and heaven forbid I can remember anything at all to talk about that is normal and from the outside world.  Because all that really matters is your person, and the fact that they are in this place when it's not where they belong (except the maternity ward-I like to believe that's mostly a happy place).

I really struggled for a while going to hospitals and doctor's offices.  Anxiety, like the kind where the room closes in and you better put your head between your legs or you're going to end up on the floor.  I did ok tonight, though.

Hospitals are good places.  We are born in them usually.  But it's kind of crazy that so much of the life cycle can happen right under one roof.

I've never dealt with the loss of an immediate family member.  I've lost great aunts and uncles which was hard.  And too many young people i've known, have been taken too soon.  But I think I might be there now.  Staring someone I love's death right in the face.  Watching, as it takes a loved one's last breath.  About to go through it, because I can't let it stop me and I can't stop it.  I've always tried to have a "positive" (I don't know what else to call it, death is never positive) outlook on death.  To focus on the amazing memories and know they are no longer in pain or suffering.  It's an unfortunate fact of our existence.  We won't be here forever.  We will see new loved ones enter this precious life, and we will see others go to the next.  Nobody wants to see anyone suffer, but it can be tough when it all happens so fast.

I guess all you can do is hope for the best and try to face reality.

Peace of Mind Designs: Grand Opening!

You guys!  I have something very exciting to share with you!  But first, let me say….

I have always wanted to start my own business showcasing my art and designs.  I already have a small freelance business with a few clients, but wanted to create goods that anyone could buy and use.  I can't tell you how many concepts and ideas that I have come up with, but have abandoned somewhere along the road to "small business success".  I think the thing that has been holding me back is this idea in my head that I had to create, produce, market, and sell every item all on my own.  I love creating the designs and making things by hand, but all of the past ideas seemed to stop at the production part.  I always became overwhelmed at that point because I never knew how I was going to make all of the goods in order to sell them by myself.

I have decided to focus on creating beautiful designs and being a good shop owner.

I would like to introduce you to Peace of Mind Designs, my new shop featuring my designs printed on tees, tanks, mugs, and totes!  I will be adding new items frequently and will always be working on creating new design collections.

I have chosen high quality goods that are all made in the United States and sweatshop free, and the printing is done here in the US too!

The debut designs are all hand drawn Mandalas.  Mandala is Sanskrit for "Circle" and symbolizes unity and harmony.  All of my designs and goods will promote a peaceful and meaningful lifestyle.

I can't wait to see where this journey takes me and I am so grateful for your support!  As always, if you have any feedback, or would like to see a certain product please don't hesitate to contact me!  If you would like to sell Peace of Mind Designs in your own shop or studio, please contact me for information on placing larger orders (and for customization).

I will be posting updates on Facebook (go like the page!) and you can get behind-the-scenes peeks on my Instagram (@snuggs22).  There is also a new button in the menu on my blog that will take you to the storefront, or click the button on the right side!

Now go check out the goods!